and a happy new year

how do you feel about the new year? I think it's such an interesting thing. 
part of me wanted to roll my eyes and not think or speak about having a whole new year to start with, and being finished with the old one.

but let's be honest. who isn't thinking at least a little bit about the old and the new?
do you make resolutions?

I get overwhelmed with the feeling of a whole year. 
my resolutions, if there are any, are always new week resolutions, and I feel better about those. 

this year, though, my new year's resolution is to become a mole.


ha ha.

that's going to be my new last name, and I'm excited about that.


I'm sure you will hear plenty of girlish chatter between now and september. 
I'll save it for those late-night pinteresting dates, because now I'm thinking about time.

isn't it so funny to have time, and sit and think about what all has taken place this year? 
I think my overall feeling is that against resolutions. it's natural in me to make lists and check them off fast, and run from here to there and be busy busy busy and productive all day. I'm sure we all have that tendency. and it's good and bad.
it's good in the sense that you feel guilty until things get done. it's bad in the sense that you judge your days and weeks and months and years by the amount of things that took place. 

"is the floor mopped? did I floss? did I have green vegetables today? okay. good day.   


aw man, no exercise? and I rested on the couch instead of cooking a meal for lunch tomorrow? what a wash."


but it's not true. we are not just machines made to do things all the time, and live to finish a list or have that perfect magazine house or body or relationship.


c.s. lewis, I believe said something like, "you do not have a spirit. you are a spirit. you have a body."


isn't that nice to think about?


sometimes you need to sit, rest, and let your spirit thrive in just being. 
I do this by coming to Jesus and letting Him undo all that stress and those misconceived notions, and then sending me off again in a better state. 

sometimes it's good to paint or read or even just sleep. 
just be, and don't feel guilty.


what are you thoughts on this? do you have that same go and go and go mentality, or does this come easy for you? any new year's resolutions? [I'm not against the idea of them at all; I just think for myself at this time, in 2012, it's not what I need]

p.s. I love love love meghan telpner's article and you probably will too.